Well people I am utterly depressed officially. First of all my knee is killing me today I don't know why but it keeps feeling like a stabbing pain every few mins. I have had this before its nothing bad just a pain nut it HURTS...
Second I gained another 1.4lbs, I just don't get it I ate right all week stayed focused worked out 4-5 times this week and only fell off the wagon once and ate 3 girl scout cookies but its not like I ate the whole box or had 3 cookies a day I had three cookies one time...and I still managed to gain 1.4 lbs I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY?!?!?!?!? I did however loose some inches not many a bit in my legs and that was it but still its something. I'm just so frustrated and upset and discouraged.
Why does the number have to go up why cant it at least stay the same I was soo excited when I first started I lost 7 lbs and was all pumped and then BAM gain back a total of 4.6lbs of the 7 lbs it just sucks. I really sad.. :(
I was going to start P90X on April 1 but I think I might just pull that date in a few days to Wed. March 30 I know its only a few days but it will maybe give me the motivation I need to push harder to get the results I want and the results I have seen people get using this system.
My weight loss adventure!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Proud to not be lazy!!
As you all know from my last post I managed to gain 3.2 lbs I have no idea how or why, I thought maybe I was retaining water or something so I weighed myself yesterday and today and my body didn't fool me it still says 192.4 BLAHHHH!!! So Last night I was so discouraged I did not want to work out. AT ALL!
I'm also starting P90X on April 1 so I kept saying to myself I don't need to work out I am starting P90X in a few days it wont kill me to not work out today. No I don't need to work out. But then I was getting more upset with myself and depressed, and I realized I'm doing the same thing I always do. "Oh I can wait I can wait I'm do it hardcore in a few days" But I realized more and more that I am WASTING time. I only have 109 days till my two vacations and I want to look good for them I really do. So I got up got dressed and worked out to the 30 day shred with Jillian. I burned almost 500 calories in 30 mins yeahhhhh me!!!
I felt so much better about myself and I am not going to let it stop me any more! I start P90X in a few days and I will not fail this time. I tried it once before but I don't think I was organized enough that time. I don't care what anyone says you need to be organized to lose weight or you will easily fall of the horse!!..
My prep for P90X is as follows I am watching all the videos before I start so I can make sure that I know what all the moves are and if I need to modify them I don't have to sit and figure out the best way during the actual work out and waste time I will have an Idea first and also I created a excel workbook to have all the information I need to succeed charts and schedules and goals and all the above also I am writing out all the food and stocking my fridge with only the food from the nutrition plan so I never get lost or confused.
I am really looking forward to seeing what P90X can do for me. I have to take pictures of my body before, there are 6-7 different poses so I will post all those and my results of the fit test the day before I start. I am soooo Excited!!!
I'm also starting P90X on April 1 so I kept saying to myself I don't need to work out I am starting P90X in a few days it wont kill me to not work out today. No I don't need to work out. But then I was getting more upset with myself and depressed, and I realized I'm doing the same thing I always do. "Oh I can wait I can wait I'm do it hardcore in a few days" But I realized more and more that I am WASTING time. I only have 109 days till my two vacations and I want to look good for them I really do. So I got up got dressed and worked out to the 30 day shred with Jillian. I burned almost 500 calories in 30 mins yeahhhhh me!!!
I felt so much better about myself and I am not going to let it stop me any more! I start P90X in a few days and I will not fail this time. I tried it once before but I don't think I was organized enough that time. I don't care what anyone says you need to be organized to lose weight or you will easily fall of the horse!!..
My prep for P90X is as follows I am watching all the videos before I start so I can make sure that I know what all the moves are and if I need to modify them I don't have to sit and figure out the best way during the actual work out and waste time I will have an Idea first and also I created a excel workbook to have all the information I need to succeed charts and schedules and goals and all the above also I am writing out all the food and stocking my fridge with only the food from the nutrition plan so I never get lost or confused.
I am really looking forward to seeing what P90X can do for me. I have to take pictures of my body before, there are 6-7 different poses so I will post all those and my results of the fit test the day before I start. I am soooo Excited!!!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Gained 3.2 lbs...FML
3.2lbs How did I gain 3.2 lbs. These are the things I hate about weight loss you do soo good all week and bust your butt in workouts to come to the scale and see these blue numbers flashing at you, the whole thing is stupid and sucks!!!!!!!
I have been working out a lot and I have been doing the Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred and her No More Trouble Zone workouts and was burning 500 calories in 30 mins...(oh yeah I got a awesome new gadget! I got a heart rate and calorie monitor watch yeah mee!) I didn't eat anything bad but I wasn't eating as often and as much as I should have been. So I think that a few things came into play here:
FIRST:: I think that I am gaining muscle (Jillian is all about training with a combo of weight lifting and cardio moves) by not doing just cardio to burn fat but gain muscle to burn more fat! And as we all know muscle weighs more then fat so yeah reason one
SECOND:: I think that since I wasn't eating this week during my regular intervals of 3 hours and was eating smaller portions of the food I normally do that my body went into like a starvation mode even though I wasn't hungry!
I know in my mind that even if you aren't hungry you still need to eat every 2-3 hours to keep your body fueled and I Know this so why did I not do it!! Agghh its so frustrating!!
EVEN though I gained 3.2lbs this week I did manage to still lose some inches! Not many and not all over just here and there!! And I didn't gain any inches anywhere so that is a good sign!!
Today is the start of a new week and new goals and this week my goal is to follow my eating schedule to a T!! No missing meals/snacks no excuses just like what I gave up for lent. There was no excuse for not following my schedule last week but I didn't realize I was doing it ya know...IDK ..it just screws with your mind!! Now I will be more aware. I set a alarm on my phone to go off every 3 hours so when it goes off no matter what I am doing or if I am hungry or not I am eating!!
I also am having my work schedule changed to help me feel not so overwhelmed. Right now I Work 9am-5pm a normal day but I work 30mins from where I live so I have to leave at 8:30am and not get home till 5:30 or 6pm depending on the traffic. It is hard for me because when I get home I have to find time to work out cook dinner walk my dogs and still find time to relax with my husband who normally goes to bed at 9pm every night because he has to be up at 4:30am for work so I don't have a lot of time to do anything. But it I work 8-4pm I will get home at 430 and be able to work out and start dinner before I would even walk through the door working 9-5pm so it will give me an hour to have to do whatever... kinda excited about it!!
OHH I also added this months progress photos I can see some changes cant wait to see what another month will do!!
I have been working out a lot and I have been doing the Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred and her No More Trouble Zone workouts and was burning 500 calories in 30 mins...(oh yeah I got a awesome new gadget! I got a heart rate and calorie monitor watch yeah mee!) I didn't eat anything bad but I wasn't eating as often and as much as I should have been. So I think that a few things came into play here:
FIRST:: I think that I am gaining muscle (Jillian is all about training with a combo of weight lifting and cardio moves) by not doing just cardio to burn fat but gain muscle to burn more fat! And as we all know muscle weighs more then fat so yeah reason one
SECOND:: I think that since I wasn't eating this week during my regular intervals of 3 hours and was eating smaller portions of the food I normally do that my body went into like a starvation mode even though I wasn't hungry!
I know in my mind that even if you aren't hungry you still need to eat every 2-3 hours to keep your body fueled and I Know this so why did I not do it!! Agghh its so frustrating!!
EVEN though I gained 3.2lbs this week I did manage to still lose some inches! Not many and not all over just here and there!! And I didn't gain any inches anywhere so that is a good sign!!
Today is the start of a new week and new goals and this week my goal is to follow my eating schedule to a T!! No missing meals/snacks no excuses just like what I gave up for lent. There was no excuse for not following my schedule last week but I didn't realize I was doing it ya know...IDK ..it just screws with your mind!! Now I will be more aware. I set a alarm on my phone to go off every 3 hours so when it goes off no matter what I am doing or if I am hungry or not I am eating!!
I also am having my work schedule changed to help me feel not so overwhelmed. Right now I Work 9am-5pm a normal day but I work 30mins from where I live so I have to leave at 8:30am and not get home till 5:30 or 6pm depending on the traffic. It is hard for me because when I get home I have to find time to work out cook dinner walk my dogs and still find time to relax with my husband who normally goes to bed at 9pm every night because he has to be up at 4:30am for work so I don't have a lot of time to do anything. But it I work 8-4pm I will get home at 430 and be able to work out and start dinner before I would even walk through the door working 9-5pm so it will give me an hour to have to do whatever... kinda excited about it!!
OHH I also added this months progress photos I can see some changes cant wait to see what another month will do!!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
.6 lbs loss ..not bad..
I know that I said in my last post I was going to work out no matter what well...that didn't happen I just felt so drained from my cold. So I slept. I don't consider this laziness only because I was sick but Sat. I started back into full gear!! I worked out for 1 hour on sat. and sun. Yesterday I had appts. after work and by the time I got home it was 930 so no time yesterday but today will be another hour workout.
But I still managed to lose .6lbs which isn't terrible considering I didn't work out... so yeah me!!! I also managed to lose a total of 7 inches all over. Check out my measurement tab to see where I am at.
I also have been considering keeping a Vegan diet for 5-6 times out of the week, I don't know if I can give up fish and my beloved sushi. But I haven't had red meat in 1 year due to my IBS my body cant process it, I haven't had chicken in a month since I started this adventure. Haven't had any cheese and as for other dairy my dad is lactose and tolerant so I grew up on silk and don't buy regular milk. So I basically keep a Vegan diet now, with just some added fish (and i know that doesn't mean I will be a Vegan but pretty damn close and same fundamentals) But I haven't felt better I think my body functions better with out all the gross crap they are putting in our food and not having any meat or meat by product. So I am looking into it and seeing what it would take to make sure I am getting the right amount of nutrition that my body needs. So I might be changing my life completely we will see.....
I am just amazed how much energy I have and not being tired (minus my sickness) but just overall being able to wake up early and not feeling tired after I eat. I have also heard everyone talking about "eating clean" I'm going to go to the bookstore and see what I can find out about this too.
But I still managed to lose .6lbs which isn't terrible considering I didn't work out... so yeah me!!! I also managed to lose a total of 7 inches all over. Check out my measurement tab to see where I am at.
I also have been considering keeping a Vegan diet for 5-6 times out of the week, I don't know if I can give up fish and my beloved sushi. But I haven't had red meat in 1 year due to my IBS my body cant process it, I haven't had chicken in a month since I started this adventure. Haven't had any cheese and as for other dairy my dad is lactose and tolerant so I grew up on silk and don't buy regular milk. So I basically keep a Vegan diet now, with just some added fish (and i know that doesn't mean I will be a Vegan but pretty damn close and same fundamentals) But I haven't felt better I think my body functions better with out all the gross crap they are putting in our food and not having any meat or meat by product. So I am looking into it and seeing what it would take to make sure I am getting the right amount of nutrition that my body needs. So I might be changing my life completely we will see.....
I am just amazed how much energy I have and not being tired (minus my sickness) but just overall being able to wake up early and not feeling tired after I eat. I have also heard everyone talking about "eating clean" I'm going to go to the bookstore and see what I can find out about this too.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Funny Random Updates
Just a few things today. ( If you read any part of this make sure to watch the video at the end it will make you smile)
First off as you all know from my last post I was sick and still am... I tried to work out on Mon Tues and Wed but i was soooo drained from work I just went home and passed out. Soo The plan is to work out today FOR SURE this time. I feel kinda hyper and the feeling that I got my strength back not 100% but like 80% enough that I need to push myself to workout.
Second:::: Since yesterday was Ash Wed. I had to give up something for lent. This time around Im not gonna do something stupid like "I give up candy ...or Beer...or Bad food..." these always never get accomplished so I have decided in my pursuit to be healthy to give up laziness and excuses. So what that means is no more excuses as to why I can't work out or Why I can eat something bad just this one time. DONE OVER no more. And as for laziness no more only working out 30 mins and being lazy and stopping cuz I am tried DONE TOO.... I think that this will help me push a bit farther. I know your supposed to give up something you love and something that will help others, but I also am going to be donating at least half of my clothes that are big I don't want to have them in my closet I need to work to fit into my new smaller clothes..SO I am doing both something I love and to help others and I think it will be great!!
Third and final thing for today's post. My friend turned me on to this vloger and made me watch her video called "How to trick people into thinking your good looking" it was sooo funny this girl is awesome and my new envy. So after watching it I went to her YouTube channel which is JennaMarbles and watched this video called "People who Piss me off at the gym." And it made me cry I was laughing so hard because for me this is what happens to me a million times maybe not in the sense she is talking about Cuz she is referring more towards age but I feel people look at me and think the same thing about me cuz I am overweight "like why is she here, I doing better then the fat girl, blah blah anyway it will make more sense when you watch it but its just soo true and funny!!!!
***I will advise you that this video does contain some foul language so if you are easily offended by it I wouldn't watch this video***
First off as you all know from my last post I was sick and still am... I tried to work out on Mon Tues and Wed but i was soooo drained from work I just went home and passed out. Soo The plan is to work out today FOR SURE this time. I feel kinda hyper and the feeling that I got my strength back not 100% but like 80% enough that I need to push myself to workout.
Second:::: Since yesterday was Ash Wed. I had to give up something for lent. This time around Im not gonna do something stupid like "I give up candy ...or Beer...or Bad food..." these always never get accomplished so I have decided in my pursuit to be healthy to give up laziness and excuses. So what that means is no more excuses as to why I can't work out or Why I can eat something bad just this one time. DONE OVER no more. And as for laziness no more only working out 30 mins and being lazy and stopping cuz I am tried DONE TOO.... I think that this will help me push a bit farther. I know your supposed to give up something you love and something that will help others, but I also am going to be donating at least half of my clothes that are big I don't want to have them in my closet I need to work to fit into my new smaller clothes..SO I am doing both something I love and to help others and I think it will be great!!
Third and final thing for today's post. My friend turned me on to this vloger and made me watch her video called "How to trick people into thinking your good looking" it was sooo funny this girl is awesome and my new envy. So after watching it I went to her YouTube channel which is JennaMarbles and watched this video called "People who Piss me off at the gym." And it made me cry I was laughing so hard because for me this is what happens to me a million times maybe not in the sense she is talking about Cuz she is referring more towards age but I feel people look at me and think the same thing about me cuz I am overweight "like why is she here, I doing better then the fat girl, blah blah anyway it will make more sense when you watch it but its just soo true and funny!!!!
***I will advise you that this video does contain some foul language so if you are easily offended by it I wouldn't watch this video***
Monday, March 7, 2011
I'm cursed I swear!! ...down 3lbs
I lost 3 lbs!!!! YEAHH ME!! I know I should be so excited I lost 3 lbs and I am but I swear I have to be cursed or something. Every time I try to start a workout routine or get into a routine something screws it up this whole year it has been getting sick..well guess what.... IM SICK AGAIN... go figure right! I have a massive head cold and a sore throat. I can't breathe and I am so tired. Just walking up the few stairs at work I get winded. I hate this I didn't get to work out Sat. or Sun. because I just laid in bed I did eat normally though (well normal diet food) so don't think my 3 lbs drop was cuz I wasn't eating I was. So Today I feel even worse then the past two days so again tonight is a lay around sleepy day. My goal is to be ready to work out tomorrow and have the 3 days of rest. I hope it will get better from here. Its sushi Monday so I hope I can still make it to that but it will depend how I feel tonight after work. I just am so disappointed that I lost 3 days of working out! Someone was like still work out sweat out the cold I laughed I can even walk up a flight of stairs without being out of breath I wouldn't be able to do anything in the workout department. I want to get better faster not make myself worse!
Anyhow on a more happy note. As you know I have my first ever 5k coming up in May and I have started training for it well I want to show you guys my improvement so far!! Now remember I couldn't/never have ran before EVER!
Feb. 22, 2011
I ran 4 mins straight did a 25 min mile with walking/running
Feb. 25, 2011
I ran 6 mins straight did a 22 min mile with walking/running
March 1, 2011
I ran 7 mins straight did a 18 min mile with walking/running
March 3, 2011
I ran 8 mins straight did a 16 min mile with walking/running
Then I got sick!! Haven't ran in a few days BOO! But I think I am doing good and slowly adding time and getting better I have 67 days left to run a whole 3 miles. I really want to run the whole thing without walking and finish in 30 mins but no more then 40mins(just in case I'm dying) for my 1st race I think a 10 min mile should be a good goal! The only problem I face is the pain I get in my shins and in my right foot when I run. My dad said he has some tricks so once I am better I see how they work!!
Anyhow on a more happy note. As you know I have my first ever 5k coming up in May and I have started training for it well I want to show you guys my improvement so far!! Now remember I couldn't/never have ran before EVER!
Feb. 22, 2011
I ran 4 mins straight did a 25 min mile with walking/running
Feb. 25, 2011
I ran 6 mins straight did a 22 min mile with walking/running
March 1, 2011
I ran 7 mins straight did a 18 min mile with walking/running
March 3, 2011
I ran 8 mins straight did a 16 min mile with walking/running
Then I got sick!! Haven't ran in a few days BOO! But I think I am doing good and slowly adding time and getting better I have 67 days left to run a whole 3 miles. I really want to run the whole thing without walking and finish in 30 mins but no more then 40mins(just in case I'm dying) for my 1st race I think a 10 min mile should be a good goal! The only problem I face is the pain I get in my shins and in my right foot when I run. My dad said he has some tricks so once I am better I see how they work!!
Thursday, March 3, 2011
I know I shouldn't but I can't help it!!
I know what you are all going to say...no no no its bad to weight in constantly you should only weigh in weekly... Well I can't help myself!! Yesterday I weighed in at 193.0 YEAHHHHH that's another 1.4lbs lost yeah me!!. Now let hope I can maintain that or lose more before my Monday weigh in!!
I had a conversation with my best friend yesterday I told her I lost 3.2lbs, She was so excited from me! Then I dropped the big question I asked her if she thought that it would be possible for me to lose at least 40lbs by my deadline which as of today is 129 days left. She is my most honest and trustworthy friend and she said and I quote "You know I will always be honest....40lbs seems like a lot in 4 months, only because you are smaller to begin with, but don't let me discourage you!!" After reading this I did get discouraged because 40lbs in 4 months is a lot but I told myself I had to work that much harder to get there. My husband broke it down and said I would need to lose 2.5lbs a week to meet my goal. Which doesn't seem like a lot but kinda is. So I got a little upset that I wouldn't make my goal before my vacation and I'd just have to be a fat slob in Cancun and Put in Bay ...again ...
Then my motivation peaked, after I was done working out I sat and was watching TV I turned on the show I used to be fat and there was this girl named Kelly who started her weight loss journey at 186.6lbs and in 72 days she lost 30lbs and was down to 156lbs welllllllll I got so excited I thought if she could lose 30 lbs in 72days I could lose 40 in 129days. It will be hard because she had a trainer and probably worked out for 8 hours a day but I can try my hardest to get there, I WANT TO BE SEXY ON THE BEACH!!! Bikini is all I have to tell myself and it is on!!!
My husband and our friend R.J. are supposed to sign up at the gym I go to today so that we can all set up a routine together and make it happen together, work out after work and stuff and help each other. My husband started what he calls a diet and work out routine already, that consists of running in the treadmill for 12 mins to do a mile then eating less food not better food but just not as much and in 1 week he lost 9lbs I HATE GUYS why can they lose it so easily! Not Fair!! He started at 251 and is now down to 242 WTF!! Aghhh anyway, That's all I have for today so yeah have a great day!!
I had a conversation with my best friend yesterday I told her I lost 3.2lbs, She was so excited from me! Then I dropped the big question I asked her if she thought that it would be possible for me to lose at least 40lbs by my deadline which as of today is 129 days left. She is my most honest and trustworthy friend and she said and I quote "You know I will always be honest....40lbs seems like a lot in 4 months, only because you are smaller to begin with, but don't let me discourage you!!" After reading this I did get discouraged because 40lbs in 4 months is a lot but I told myself I had to work that much harder to get there. My husband broke it down and said I would need to lose 2.5lbs a week to meet my goal. Which doesn't seem like a lot but kinda is. So I got a little upset that I wouldn't make my goal before my vacation and I'd just have to be a fat slob in Cancun and Put in Bay ...again ...
Then my motivation peaked, after I was done working out I sat and was watching TV I turned on the show I used to be fat and there was this girl named Kelly who started her weight loss journey at 186.6lbs and in 72 days she lost 30lbs and was down to 156lbs welllllllll I got so excited I thought if she could lose 30 lbs in 72days I could lose 40 in 129days. It will be hard because she had a trainer and probably worked out for 8 hours a day but I can try my hardest to get there, I WANT TO BE SEXY ON THE BEACH!!! Bikini is all I have to tell myself and it is on!!!
My husband and our friend R.J. are supposed to sign up at the gym I go to today so that we can all set up a routine together and make it happen together, work out after work and stuff and help each other. My husband started what he calls a diet and work out routine already, that consists of running in the treadmill for 12 mins to do a mile then eating less food not better food but just not as much and in 1 week he lost 9lbs I HATE GUYS why can they lose it so easily! Not Fair!! He started at 251 and is now down to 242 WTF!! Aghhh anyway, That's all I have for today so yeah have a great day!!
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