FROM THE BEGINNING OF TIME

Hello people out there in computer land, My name is Heather! I'm 22 years old and I have decided to start a blog..obviously.. this is my first blog ever! So please bear with me. I'm starting this to help me along with my weight loss adventure, so its going to be all about my struggles and successes and day to day  life. I hope I can make it sorta exciting! So lets start at the beginning!! Well I have always been over weight since the 6-7th grade. I never remember my pant size being smaller then a size 9 (that was in 7th grade) I was a 126lbs in 7th grade and I was 5' UGHH right. I was blessed however to be well portioned. I gain weight all over not in one place so when I tell people how much I weigh I hear the same thing over and over again. "You can't weigh that much" I hate hearing that soooo much. It really bothers me! I should take it as a compliment but then I would just be giving myself a false view on reality and I think I did for a long time, I would think"Oh they think I weigh only this so I can gain weight and still be ok". Yeah NO.... When I was a senior in high school I was a size 11 pants and weighed 150lbs I was ok with that but during the summer after high school was over I lost 5lbs and was even happier....Right now on the other hand I weigh 190lbs people tell me no way you weigh more then 160lbs. I gained 45lbs in 4 years blahhh. Well what changed you may say well. I met my fiancee in college and he loved to eat out all the time and when say all the time I mean every meal of every day...His family never cooked they always ate out and when they did eat at home it was take out, pizza, Chinese, subway! He introduced me into many restaurants I had never eaten at and they are amazing. So much fatty foods in a short amount of time. So I don't blame him completely because I could have had more self control but I didn't. I was working out for awhile at first but then stopped and now I'm miserable!! I feel sick all the time and tired and just overall lazy. Now here is the more depressing part of my story! A few months ago I was doing great I lost 20lbs and was at 170lbs then I hurt my shoulder and was unable to work out then starting have fast food for lunch then before I knew it BAM back to 190 in a matter of 3-4 months. I'm so mad at myself ...I was there now I went in reverse!..So I think if I started this blog I can be held accountable for my actions and have a place to vent. I try to talk to my husband but he say he will help but he is more of an enabler and say hey lets go get wings or hey pizza sounds good. Then after were eating he says hey you should be eating this..RAHH well duh but this is where you wanted to go. I'm not going to go eat dinner by myself. Oh and BTW he is like a twig he eats whatever and doesn't gain a pound. Anyway now that I wrote a book. I will end today's post and come back tomorrow. Thanks for listening!!